i've been in singapore for 3 months,
CFA exam is in 2 weeks,
i've been down and out,
i've bounced back,
i'm taking things slow now.
one thing remains: God is still the centre of my life.
recently, i've found that i have more time to myself, just some breathing space to think and reflect. - and i hated it!! it just confirms the fact that i can't be left idle.
work has been great. obviously the occasional stressful periods, but i'm learning to deal with it and when it all gets too much, i am relying on His strength and guidance.
i have also been getting more sleep, though i'm not sure if it's a good thing as my body and mind is starting to crave for more and more!
a new trend that's happening - i'm listening to more "punk" music. but Hillsong still features very regularly on my iPod :)
i have also learnt not to regret the past but to look forward to the future. there's a lot of things in life that i am impatient for, many questions beginning with WHY, restlessness kicking in...but i'm constantly reminded that He has a perfect plan for me and it will be in His perfect timing.
i really thank God for the friends in my life, who are quickly becoming family.
i was recommended a book the other day: Why Men Love Bitches
i read 20 pages on the train the other day and it made me laugh. honestly, i found it a little ridiculous.
1. "from Doormat to Dreamgirl - a woman's guide to holding her own in a relationship" - there's a lot in there about being true to yourself, which i'm not disagreeing with, but then there are many helpful suggestions on how to subtley manipulate yourself and your attitude, and then i'm left wondering why all this for a man who might not appreciate who you truly are if you're representing yourself as someone you're not?
2. i don't believe in dating. or rather, i believe in courtship, and there IS a difference. if you want to go into details, read Joshua Harris. God's plan and timing is what i believe in and whether or not there is someone He has planned for me in my life.
so, for me, i don't need to know how to become a woman that men would find desirable. neither do i need someone telling me how to run my relationships. bottom line, i'm not going to cater to the imperfections of mankind and the superficial standards of society.
the month of may marks the start of birthday season. giselle, milly, daddy, von, and kathy have already had their birthdays and indeed, there are many more to come...i've missed them all so dearly! especially during this time of celebrations!! sometimes i can't believe it's only been 3 months and i shouldn't be feeling so homesick, yet at other times i can't believe 3 whole months have flown by and i'm wondering when, and counting down the days til, i will be able to make a trip back home to catch up with everyone again.
yesterday, after much deliberation, i decided to go to bern's house party with beckie. and i was glad gloria and gwen were there too :) 2 hours spent in front of the tv and us four were starting to go a little crazy and deciding on a supper run. but joined in the drinking games when told we were "being antisocial, we might as well just have stayed at home and talk to each other on the phone". turned out to be a pretty good night after all and i arrived home and immediately fell into traum-land at about 6am...only to be rudely awakened and shocked into the waking world too frequently from 9am, thanks to the neighbours upstairs doing renovations. i finally gave up at 11am, i don't think my heart could take it any longer...how ironic that the only time i was prepared to sleep in and i'm not even given the opportunity!
i should have blogged about 2 weeks earlier and put up these photos of our girls night - dinner at TCC and Muse, and outing to Sentosa...hee:
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