something's wrong

i seriously don't know what exactly is wrong but i've been feeling seriously off for more than a week now.

thank God that i've recovered from the stupid chest infection BUT for some reason, my throat will randomly feel itchy and the cough that follows is really horrible...so bad that i end up vomiting :( then there are days when i wake up and my tummy hurts and i'd have the urge to vomit. and i've been feeling hungry and eating so much lately =/ late night binge eating...on junk food too! ugh....sooo bad...

then there's the insomnia... i'd gone to bed really late (or early depends how u see it) on sunday night after a VERY long day out and was super exhausted, had a headache, stomache and backache! only to wake up at 3.30am and realised i had been dreaming about past&future and without even realising it, i was crying and all i could think was: "oh no...crying and sleeping is not good! i'm gonna get terrible eyebags!"

and i've been so freaking mad the last few days!!

i was angry and yet i kept it in, refusing to give up, knowing the days are numbered when i'll have time.

but again and again i've been let down and i just couldn't hold it in anymore.

i needed to vent.

how unfair life seems to be to me.

and yet i know, reminded by the other huang xiao jie, that i need to learn to let go, to relax, to not take things so personally.

slowly, things are getting better... i took a huge leap today (despite several crazy wild uniquely michelle diversions).