a short word

hmm there's so many things i want to say, words to put down, thoughts to record.
you know, my memory is so bad these days! all part and parcel of getting old -.-

i've been thinking about getting baptised. somehow i feel that the time is right but i'm still praying for the Lord to show me the way. and i've been thinking about my testimony. i realise how far i've come and how much i've grown. how much i've struggled and how blessed i've been. how my life has changed...

i really want to blog more but i'm too tired. even though JPoh came to find me at 8pm and dragged me out of the office. i rented 2 movies on the way home - the Secret and Priceless.

emo post ahead...

had a quick chat to dear kathy who's having more fun than me on her exchange to Nottingham...
it's wonderful to hear that you've found someone who really likes you ;)
and of course someone to look out for you and take care of you!!! :p
like i told kat, its so nice to have someone when you're so far away from all thats familiar....
i'm so envious too...i just can't help thinking "when will it be my turn?"

i'm getting less and less excited about going home for Christmas.
it's just a natural reaction to be super enthusiastic when i talk about it.
even though it'll be less than 2 weeks away, there will be a few people i'll miss to death!
at least i plan to go from 16-29 dec but....my boss was really hesitant about me taking sooo many days off (it's not really that many if you think about it...).
i'll definitely miss the girls....and nicholas (can be considered one of the girls :p) and the rest of my second family - not so small :)

hmmm.....march is coming up really fast......another year older...

i feel like i haven't achieved much in the 9 months i've been here...
wow, almost a year...

"life is great when you have meaningful relationships" i guess that's true...

it's almost 11pm and i'm already starting to fall asleep......
i'll tell you a secret.....shhh.....i hate work....

i'm sick and i can't even take mc. and it's worse for me to be at work cos the a/c is so freakin' freezin'!!! now that it's wednesday, i'm really scared i'll be miserably sick the whole weekend too :( pray for quick recovery please! oh and then nicholas chan accused me of passing him my cold....like he would get sick that quickly?!! and hello?!! i didn't ask him to use my fork can!

i guess i know why i've been feeling so emo....
i've been spending alot of "alone" time in the last week...pretty much since my mum went home. and for those who REALLY know me, know that i hate being by myself. so then the emo thoughts come in and take over....lol

me emo?

thinking, wondering, hoping

i had the perfect opportunity. i was walking towards you and was just about to open my mouth to say "hi" when......

.........you looked up at me. and my heart stopped. i didn't even smile. i just turned and walked out the door purposefully. and then, i could have included you in our conversation. but i didn't.

WHY?????
i don't have the answer.
actually i do. i want it to be in God's perfect timing. i'm exercising patience. there will be many more chances in the future. definitely, for sure.

i find myself going down paths i've never taken. coming to crossroads after crossroads.
i just don't want to walk the road less travelled by myself.

i hate office politics. mummy gave me some good advice before she left.
we had some good long conversations whilst she was here and it has affirmed a few things i already knew.
on the last day she kept asking me if there was anything i wanted to tell her. i couldn't think of anything! then i asked her if my sister has a boyfriend. she said no, and offered an explanation too - she says my sister is "scary" LOL
and melissa IS scary! she's got high expectations and never compromises on values. this is kindda hard with the quality of guys out there....im serious!
then i asked my mum why she didn't ask if i had a boyfriend.
she laughed -_- then asked, "do you?"
obviously you all know the answer: no.
then i told her about how anxious i was about getting older and being alone, she laughed then told me to be patient and prayerful.
oh and she also complained about how little sleep i'm getting. it can't be helped!!! night time is the only time i get all to myself. and then i need to get up early so i can be at work before 8am.
i'm so not getting my beauty sleep!

hmm and work is another matter entirely. too late to go into that now. it's almost 11pm...

goodnight!

March 9

this is the extent of my boredom...
(thanks goes out to melvin who put the idea into my head)


according to Wikipedia:
March 9 is the 68th day of the year (69th in leap years) in the Gregorian calendar. There are 297 days remaining until the end of the year.

several events and births...none worthy enough to catch my attention


uneventful :(

from Michelle's desk

i have no facebook or friendster access so Qi has been so kind as to suggest that i blog instead.
hmm, but i think it's easier to multi-task when i'm talking to her on the phone! LOL

i'm totally confused now!
someone i've been avoiding....just when i thought "i'm a big girl, i can handle it" i've been warned to keep staying away.
sigh....

oh! today i opened a whole stack of bills and guess what?!!
they're all ZERO balance!!! YAY!!! only have my singtel bill to pay for BUT it's amazingly less than $100! WOW!
i'm learning to save, my "savings" account is depleting far more quickly than i anticipated :(

tonight is Group Risk D&D so we're allowed to leave early - 4pm!
unfortunately, i'm also doing revaluation tonight, which can only be started at 7pm!!!
but JPoh and i have devised a plan - leave at 4 to shop/coffee/chat and come back at 6plus :)
i just received word that jason and the guys have already left to go to the rec club for a pool session -_-

i'm so tired ~~

Museum Outing

visitied the National Museum today! free entry....but not really that much to see, although the company was excellent as usual ;) met up with Fiona, Qi, Nicholas and Melvin for brunch at Soup Spoon (the food wasn't fantastic), then headed to the Museum, followed by dessert at ProjectShop Paragon, more food at Thai Express, then hairdressers, shopping and dinner with dear Sinyee! hmm...spent 12 hours out today...really tired now but i blogged these photos for miss teo yan qi!!! love ya heaps gal ;) HUGS TO ALL MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS I MET UP WITH TODAY :) i'm glad to have you all to share my life with!

something wrong with qi's camera?

deepavali

inside the museum

going up...

mmm....singapore food history!

checking out the displays

at Thai Express

in my head

my thoughts are all jumbled at the moment. i feel all empty inside.
totally drained mentally, emotionally...can i handle everything??

JPoh asks the most interesting questions. sometimes i think she can really see deep into my heart and tries to make me realise/say out loud how i really feel.
i must say i was really disappointed, above all.
it's a horrible feeling, when you realise that you don't mean much at all to someone who means so much to you.

and i've got conscience warfare going on about someone....
something i shouldn't touch, something i shouldn't even be contemplating about!

these words....they're all just words....i'm trying not to read too much into them....

true sad story

they have blocked facebook and friendster at work.
the night before that, i was telling melvin and nicholas how addicted i'm becoming to facebook.
that will teach me....

interesting convos...

workload was quite light today (but i do have a growing pile of back logs to do -_-).

i was finally convinced to finish up at about 9pm.

had to pop by home during lunch so Andrew and I decided to have chicken rice at my place.

had an interesting conversation about what I'm looking for in a partner.

called up ah teo in the evening for a chat.

she told me something very interesting ;)

babe, i really do enjoy our phone time at work!!

had drinks with the "cosy 4" tonight.

there are always several interesting discussions we have!

the laughs...the company...the stupidest things we say/do...