Big Questions

I've been questioning myself lately...
What does it mean to completely abandon my heart to God?
I don't feel like I'm holding back, but I doubt myself.

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory

- The Stand -

There's so much more I want to do. But I feel my passion stifled by life and people. Ask me what I want to do with my life? I don't know anymore. Ask me what I want to do in the next day? I don't know anymore.

I've been running, trying to be one who sees

I've been working, salvation out on my knees

There is nothing better than knowing

That we are redeemed

Unbelieving trusting in creative hands,

I am praying for our world to bow to your plan

And this one thought is unmistakable

I take up my cross and follow you Lord

When you stand the tall trees and mountains bow

When you speak the fiercest of oceans is still

And I see the sinner seek devotion

The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees

Unforgiven, my savior who did not deserve death

He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness

Undelivered, but it doesn't seem right

Unless I keep my eyes focused on the savior who gave his life

In the middle of a world that denies it believes

It is breaking apart at the very seams

There is one thing to be alive for

And it's to take up my cross and follow you Lord

I will take up my cross and follow Lord where you lead me

And I will take up my cross and follow wherever you go

- Devotion -

There's a few things that have occurred recently that has humbled me. I'm trusting in his faithfulness. Though this world fails me, he never does. When I feel discouraged and sad, he shows me hope and puts a cheer in my heart.

And then there's my stumbling block...the biggest one at the moment: HIM.
I feel that I could be happy forever just to be by your side. And yet this happiness is laced with the pain of heartache. Cos you never saw me when I stood beside you, never heard me when I cried, never felt the warmth of my embrace.
JPoh: "the right guy at the wrong time"
Maybe it's true, maybe it's not. I really don't know what to think and what to feel.
I can only pray about it.

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

- From the Inside Out -