crushed

did i do something wrong? say something wrong?
i was so excited and happy. now i'm just crushed and depressed.
is it any wonder i'm questioning my ability to make friends??
it's the closest ones that hurts the most, yet i can't distance myself from people.
it's a love-hate relationship.
why don't people listen properly? (not even carefully, just properly)
or do they not even listen to me at all and just make assumptions?
or do they not think before they say and are just careless with their words?
and your words, so harsh they break my heart, so strong they make me tear.

so, how will i spend my weekend, my days of rest?
with those who will cheer me up.

or alone.