It's been awhile...

It's been some time since i've last blogged and i've missed it.
have been spending my time giving myself anxiety attacks and lots of stress
most of it brought on by uni, pressure to not fail so i can graduate (in like a few weeks!)
and the fact that i've been too lazy to apply for jobs. i really don't want to be
in an accounting job but seriously, there's not a lot of finance jobs (that i want) in brisbane
or the gold coast.

so as i'm desperately trying to cram for my exams (thanks to my sucky exam timetable) i
once again go into sugar-craving mode and today, i have lindt and dove keeping me company.
i have lea's 21st tmr...my last party before i hand over my life to the books. hopefully everything
i've learnt in the last few months will come easily and i won't have to stress too much. just
disappointed that i didn't get alot done today - auditing is evil and doesn't want me to understand
and get through the readings :'( i'm also really close to burning the auditing standards (before
the exam)

this face, it's angry
everything sux big time!!
i'm trying to remain optimistic but viewing my html assignment marks just tipped me over the edge.
on top of that i'm seriously stressed out about how i'm even going to survive the rest of this semester.
there's way too much pressure on me right now.
too little time.
i don't have time to make this cute little dress i've designed.
i'd rather jump off a cliff than face another auditing quiz.
i'm in the worst bitchy mood ever.
so steer clear of me for awhile.

More than a few people have been asking me: who is this mysterious guy I have a crush on?!
It's a secret.
Actually it's not really.
But only Shikha and I know who it is.
So really, it's a secret.

Chocolate coated coffee beans
I love these! It's the greatest invention ever!
I'm not much of a coffee lover.
I only like it with a million teaspoons of sugar.
It gives me energy like no other, even my first love Coke doesn't come close.
The dark chocolate coated ones are the best. Trust me.
A word of warning: don't eat too much at one go unless you want to induce giddy nauseating feelings.

Left behind
Mummy and sister are going to Singapore in 2 weeks.
I have to stay behind and study. Suppposedly.
It's so cruel that they talk about all the good food they will be eating. Without me.
Char kway teow, roti prata, chicken rice!!!
I need to get an internship in Singapore for Dec-Feb.

A glimpse of the future?

Less than 3 months to graduation.
I still have no job, no plans.
It's only because I'm lazy.
Also, I know I can easily get a boring accounting gig.
But I want an exciting investment banking, go places job.
So I have decided to start my own business.
More of a little side project whilst getting my life together and my CFA qualification.
Will also be applying for internships for the summer hols.
And summer internships in Europe!
Hoping that this will be a good way for me to gain experience and decide if this is the path I want to take for the rest of my life.
I'm not ready to leave the nest yet, figuratively speaking.
I'm not cashed up enough :)
Yes, I do spend too much money on useless material possessions.

It just hit me that I can't expect to do what I've been doing for the past 3 1/2 years - cramming - if I want to get a good overall GPA.
Especially since discovering that I've managed to push it up in the last couple semsters.
So I've decided to keep on top of my work and study a little everyday.
Of course, this comes after I procrastinated and then struggled for my mids.
I hate feeling shitty walking out of an exam.
I also hate the whole head-banging, kicking-yourself feeling when I get the results.
Worse still, I hate the fact that alot of other people do better than me.
The competitive streak coming out.
Too bad it only comes out when results are announced and not before the exam.

an Epiphany, a Resolution not to resort to stalker-esque activities, and a Ban

More to come.

And I'm leaving uni for home now.

found a partner!
...of the assignment type that is.
I was walking to my info systems tute and bumped into long-time, long-lost friend Mel.
She asked where I was off to and I replied, eyes rolling, "info systems tute".
She says "what?!" and I say "1201...computing subject..."
And she starts screaming and told me she was also doing this subject.
After much hoo-ha about how we've managed to miss each other, being in the same lecture and all, we decided to pair up for this assignment.
Just when I was about to email the lecturer to let him know I've decided to go solo.
I think I can handle databases and spreadsheets *sarcasm

That was very mood lifting, finding someone who did the same subject in the only subject I have no friends in.
It was definitely needed after my very deflating auditing lecture.
It wasn't so much the lecture that was deflating rather than people saying things that was deflating.
Or rather what I was eavesdropping that was deflating.
To my mood, ego and everything in between.
Will definitely need to fill Shikha in for this one.

My laptop has died on me again!!

Hoping repairs will be hastier this time around, but won't be able to send it in til Tuesday :(

Studying for accounting is stressful.

I've just had about enough of eliminations.

Then realised I haven't even gotten to minority interests, changes in ownership interests, and indirect interests.

Crap!

Better get a move on.

I was talking on the phone to Shikha the other night, gossiping as usual.

To get some privacy, I went to the bathroom; sis was in bedroom, parents watching tv n cooking.

Anyway, after our conversation, I went back to the bedroom where my sister told me that I did not get the privacy I was after.

Instead my conversation was amplified for everyone to hear due to the bathroom acoustics.

Note to self: never take my phone calls to the bathroom!!

emo sets the mood

Unless I'm going a hardcore all-out study session, I need something that will distract me from the silent-ness of studying alone.
I like watching dvds but that can get a little too distracting, especially when it gets to the good part.
TV series are my favourite though. For some reason I concentrate better on my work.
But if I'm semi-serious, as in I really need to kick my ass into gear, then music is the best way to go.
And what better music to set the study mood than emo.
R & B just makes me want to go clubbing with the girls.
But the #1 reason why I think emo music goes best with studying: the sad melancholy tunes matches perfectly with my whole attitude for the need to study. Kindda torturous. Unless I totally get it, then I would love to study.

After getting home from my sucky day at uni yesterday, Shikha and I had a 45-min conversation dissecting the derivatives exam.
We couldn't come up for an answer for the payoff diagram.
Everyone we know had a different diagram.
Perfect emo music mood.

what a day!

today was the day of my derivatives exam. that is how it will go down in history!
i walked out of this exam feeling like shit. uh-huh. now i will have to spend my swotty studying my ass off for this when it should have been easy. easier.
anyway, given the black mood i was in, i just wanted to be by myself so i can wallow in my grief.
and also because i have a 50% mid on monday that i haven't started studying for. so much for all the hurt i was gona put on corp structures eh. i hate accounting.
so having walked all the way from uni to judy's (where i've left my car from when i visited her this morning) i was, naturally, thirsty....for water!
bought a bottle of water, got in my car and some idiot wanted to park right behind it so i decided to drive off first.
of course, then when i turned onto sir fred schonell, given the sharpness of the turn, the bottle fell over to the other side of the car. out of my reach!
so then i spent the next 10 mins trying to reach it but of course, this is the only time my "traffic curse" gets lifted and its smooth sailing the entire journey.
which meant that i was extremely dehydrated when i got home.
good thing i did not faint since it was also very hot! otherwise this post will not be up now.
and i thought i would be fairly prepared for this exam. sigh.
there's a lesson to be learnt here: study harder for the next mid!!!
on my way now.... *dragging feet

i have a really bad habit of playing my favourite-song-right-now on repeat until i get sick of it. but i'm pretty good with the endurance bit and actually make my sister sick of the song before i get sick of it :)

i'm really bored and am procrastinating, my lecture notes and textbook sitting right beside me. for now, corporate accounting can go jump off a cliff. i'm even too lazy to put a title on this post!

anyway i have just captured a quick shot of our wardrobe and boy is it a mess! you know what they say about messy wardrobes equals a disorganised mind or something along those lines? not true. i have a perfectly organised mind :)

crush some more

warning: this post will be entirely about my long-term crush (see previous posts for info)

and so this is...the 2nd time i have been introduced to him. the 1st being 15 months ago whilst waiting to go into an accounting mid-sem, having daisy doing a saying-name-while-gesturing intro mid-way through her last-minute cramming. i'm not even sure he remembered me then as the same person from stats class, omg 2 years before that!....hmmm there's something to think about. anyway, the whole point being today i had another intro and again, i don't think he remembers me. or maybe he does...ok here's the recap because i can and also so i don't have to repeat it to all my girls :)

i was walking around aimlessly, erm well at least aimlessly towards my next class that is, snack in hand, wondering if i should take up a "6 free foils" offer at the hairdresser tomorrow (will not be happening because the car is getting a facelift and i'm supposed to be "studying"). so back to my walking, i turned ie. changed direction, and sun in my eye, looked down onto the lovely pavement in order to reduce sun-damage to my peeps and thought i caught a glance of shikha's lovely bright green bag so i took a 2nd look and lo and behold! it's shikha!! of course i was happy to see her! with only one class with her this semester, i never get to see her more often than once a week unless i bump into her, like today! anyway, who did she happen to be walking with? yup you guessed it, him...small world? wellllll i would like to indulge with the whole story of thursday but....it's really not that exciting. long story short, that's when shikha started talking to him and that's why they were together and that's why i had the chance of a 2nd intro! ok getting on with it, we said hi, shikha introduced us, talked a bit then shikha and i left. don't worry i didn't forget about my class...it didn't start for another 40 mins. plenty of time! anyway as soon as we walked away, shikha emphasised her point that he's not attractive, proving that we do indeed have different tastes although i did mention before that he's not attractive. even to me. see...looks aren't everything! just like esther said :) then shikha told me that i was blushing before when i was talking to him and i was quite adamant that i wasn't blushing. in fact, i thought i was rather cool and calm and in control. very collected not at all flustered! but if i was or if he thought i was blushing then ohhhh nooooo!!!! :(
ok now looking back on this post, it's actually really sad and now i am indeed blushing. but life goes on and everyone can do with a good laugh right? ok better press "publish" before i chicken out!!

cool as a bean

i'm feeling slightly tired and i've been hunched over my laptop since dinner. i'm sitting on my bed so my back hurts and is screaming out for a chiropractor to come save it. my eyes have gone all droopy and i guess its because i should be getting to bed. but it was so much fun chatting with esther and pao wan on msn :) thx for the lovely conversation/gossip gals! not guys ;) i'm thinking we should definitely do the grad tour, maybe road-trip the journey? and possibly something for the sept hols? ok it's getting late and i'm heading to the markets with mum tomorrow so i better run! hmmm this was short...

love affair with purple

i hate queensland weather. why does it have to be so damn hot??? i'd rather not put away my jeans and cardis yet. although there are many people who would beg to differ. i know several skin-cancer loving people (ok don't take that personally) who are overjoyed at being able to tan every weekend, not being cooped up inside with the heater on. for me, i love bumming around the house in my pjs and being able to do almost everything that doesn't require me to socialise in comfy clothes. don't get me wrong, i love to dress up for a night out or wear something more than just ruggers and jersey (that was only during my college years) to uni. there's just something about pjs...

anyway, nice to see me procrastinating since i haven't finished studying for corporate accounting. guess i'm just easily distracted. but i am determined to finish it by the weekend so i can move on to....derivatives! actually studying up forwards, futures and options is so much better than learning consolidation journals for investments in subsidiaries. yup that's right, big yawn!

i was just thinking over the last weekend about how i never see anyone around anymore, especially chris ( i was thinking about him coz his birthday is today not for any other reason. btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS AND CHRISTINE!!!). and then i see him not once, but twice this week! sweet, i think, it happens! on monday, after a gruelling 5 hrs of mundane tutorials and lectures, i was berating myself for not bringing along a cardi (i'm not crazy, it gets really hot all day and then goes all freezing cold at night) and trying to walk as quickly as possible across the great court, praying that nancy already has the car ready so i'm not standing around for ages, when i heard my name. and then again. i mean you would think that i would look around after the first time right? my excuse: i was thinking about how cold i was! and a few metres away from me, is chris although i have no idea how i made out that it was him in the dark. i wave, i keep walking. so that was chris sighting number one. then yesterday, after scoffing down a huge roast beef roll for lunch, and fresh strawberries for desert during ubt, i was sitting in my lecture and the girl next to me was eating a chocolate cookie! a chocolate cookie! so of course, i was craving a chocolate cookie. i always get hungry all the time if i have a good-size breakfast in the morning. and i had roti and curry. so after almost going crazy for 2 hours with my cookie cravings, i was walking to my next tute, debating if i indeed should have that cookie i was craving for. and out of nowhere, seriously, nowhere, someone grabs my arm and scared the living bejeezies out of me. chris sighting number two. ok, more like meeting rather than sighting. and no, i had enough restraint not to have a cookie. but i do want one now...

you know how in high school you have that silly crush that lasts for only 1 second? maybe progression to uni also means that you hang on to your crushes for longer? alright, confession: i have had a crush on one particular boy for the last 4 years. crap! that's a long time! and it's not that he's particular attractive, in fact, shikha and i have concluded that he is indeed balding! alright, to be fair, he's more receding than balding but you get the idea. yes, i can be very dramatic. he's just....i really hate using this word especially since i just told someone (not telling who) that this is what he is....charming. like suave. like really really cool ( ok back to high school terminology now). ok so meeting this crush in a stats lecture in 2003, actually i wouldn't give a rats ass who he is accept that he demanded my attention back then. no, not being dramatic this time, but he spoke to me first. ok not really speak but more like, oh gosh this is not getting good it's like i'm digging an even bigger hole for myself, but he was teasing me. like in a high school way, since we did just graduate from high school not long ago back then. and although we didn't become one of those friends who sit together in classes, we did do alot of the same subjects (duh! same degree!) and so saw him quite often. but really, why do i still have a crush on this guy?? but i'm not the same boy-crazy michelle as i was back then ie. i don't do man-eating anymore so boys, you can relax.

then there's also a very perplexing issue of why great eligible guys that you meet and get to really know are almost always never single. and then by the time you get to stage where it would just be weird if you get together (ie he's like a brother to you) he becomes available and on the market.

so there's some things to think about. oh and right now, i'm taking on the challenge to memorise the book of james. i scanned through the verses and discovered how much wisdom and truth (very confronting ones) there are in them. so this little head is going to squeeze in a little more into that brain of hers!

and to top it all off, here is a photo i just received from lyn of the 2 of us in melbourne, taking snaps whilst mel tries on tsubis in the fitting rooms :)

oh and i'm totally lovin' purple at the moment. i'm even thinking about getting purple jeans! fashion faux pas or seriously bitchin' idea?? comments please!!

getting into it!

4 weeks of uni have already passed and i'm seriously stressing about how behind i'm getting. so i made a resolution to get into my accounting for corporate structures this weekend. right, so 4 weeks of figuring out how to do consolidation journals for the group. even that sounds hard enough without having to actually do it. focus michelle!!! i have to get through this. just keep your head down and keep working!!! at least i'm not spending too much time trying to wrap my head around the concepts. it's main just revising what i have learnt so far. *ssssiiiiiigggghhhhh* and once i finish this, which prob won't be till tuesday at best, i'm going to have to get on the case with auditing! already behind with the quizzes! right, back to work!

This must finally be the week that my lucky stars are all in line. Nope, it's just God's way of saying He's watching over me.

I am pleased to announce that I have indeed passed Investments so there is no need to panic about not graduating in December. Also that, in a way, I rock.

This year I have been preaching like no other that being single is a good thing. Maybe I was just trying to convince myself, along with anyone else who will hear. But now I truly understand why and don't blame God for leaving me alone with noone for companionship. One thing, if I did have a boyfriend in a serious relationship, would I really be free to choose what I want to do when I graduate? Ok I haven't decided what to do or where to stay but at least I don't feel commited to stay on the gold coast or even brisbane for that matter. I can choose anywhere in the world to go to. The world is my oyster. yada yada. I'm free and loving it. When I settle down and get married I will have plenty of opportunities to be responsible and sensible and think of my other half. But right now I don't have to be worried about how my partner will feel if I just upped and left. Singapore, New York, London, Melbourne, I could be anywhere and I wouldn't have to worry about a long distance relationship. I also don't have to commit myself to right here so that I can be with a bf, who i might add, may not be "the one". oh yeah and I can perve all I want on the hot boys that seem to inundate my finance classes :) make that a really really big smile :)

And I know that God is watching over my spiritual growth by providing me with a church and also uni bible talks (ubt) to learn more and meeting people who will be encouraging and inspiring my spiritual life.

I have also learnt not to be discouraged. that God has a plan for me. so i can start applying for all the jobs i want and if a rejection letter comes my way, I won't be saddened or discouraged but know that God is leading the way, and He will put me where i will be able to do the most for Him :)

Long time no post!

Ok, yeah, I haven't gotten to a computer long enough to write out a post so I've got some catching up to do. I got to uni today nice and early (though I only got a parking space in the fartherest possible place) and just found out that my lecture has been cancelled. Uh huh. So I've managed to snag a computer at our busiest library to update myself with what's going on with the rest of the world. Oh and also to tell all what I've been up to.

So firstly, Melbourne trip! *For those who don't want the details, skip down to the highlights.* Mel and I got a total of 4 hours sleep Thursday night. Because the dvd box set of Veronica Mars Season 1 we ordered arrived (yay! before we left for Melbourne too!) and we just had to watch the last couple of episodes that we haven't seen. Of course, it left on a cliffhanger of a season so now we're busting our asses to try to get season 2 asap. We are not obsessed. Ok back to Melbourne: so we left the house at 5.15am for our 6.30am flight and arrived in Melbourne at 9.05am. Thank God there wasn't daylight savings or we'd be missing out! After checking-in to our hotel (we had some trouble with finding the lifts) we decided to head to Crown and did some window shopping 'coz that's all we could afford really. Then we met up with Lynette in the city, were supposed to meet Jon too but guess he's got a busier social schedule than I will ever have :p. Thanks to Lynette who helped Mel find her jeans. She absolutely loves them to death. We shopped till we dropped. Quite literally. So much so that we couldn't walk back into the city to see Christine and she had to come to us instead! Honestly, we did alot of walking and we felt like we just couldn't take another step. Dinner with Christine was great. Seriously, since leaving Singapore in 1997 we hardly ever see each other (try once every few years) but when we do, it's like we never left. But it was an early night for us since it was an extremely early start to begin with. Saturday we did some shopping with mum and dad (they got in at like 11pm and decided to ring at 12am to let us know they're here) in the morning and ended with hot chocolate at Koko Black. They are the best hot chocolates (thanks to Lynette again) but I think we over did it with chocolate truffles on the side. After that, Mel and I were feeling very sick to the stomach and shopped miserably before meeting Christine and the twins Alison and Rachel. We had lunch and did some shopping again before meeting up with mum and dad for dinner with their friends. Sunday was sad and we had gloomy weather to match our spirits. We would be leaving Melbourne and don't know when our next visit will be. After a quick breakfast with mum and dad we psyched ourselves up for the day ahead and tackled the Queen Victoria markets. Oh yes, our feet still hurt like hell but we just ploughed on anyway. Then we stopped by a really funky cafe/bar for a big breakfast and hot and spicy wedges for lunch. It was good food and even better music. Then on we went to Lygon Street, the museum and exhibition hall before Mel couldn't take the walking any more. So we trammed it to Federation Square where a guy was doing a comedy sketch thing and we decided to leave when it got a little too disturbing. Since we were pretty much all shopped out we decided to hit the high fashion street and peeked in at Gucci, Chanel, all the usual suspects and then ducking in to check out a retro vintage store that had some pretty cool stuff. After all that, we could only drag ourselves back to Crown and rendezvoused with mum and dad at Cafe Greco for tea. They have the best selection of cakes - all yummy :) I wish I could bake like that!! What a way to end our trip, hey.

the highlights:
Melbourne Central so totally rocks! Also loving the Myers Melbourne - wish they have a store like that up here. So jealous. Lynette is still as lovely as ever, it was good catching up again! Christine, I'm on to you and your alter ego...Chris hahaha love the random photo taking tho ;). Alison and Rachel...so grown up and looking more unlike each other than ever! Too bad I couldn't meet with Esther and Pao Wan :'( oh and Jon too. I'm wondering if you've gotten any buffer haha is that even possible??? Tiramisu at Cafe Greco. My fave little lollies from Suga - now I finally know how they make them :) almost getting run over by trams. buying lots of new stuff, with alot of restraint not to go overboard.

I will be putting a link up soon to the photos we took in Melbourne. So if anyone has a suggestion of a good website let me know. At the moment I'm using photobucket but it gives me the shits 'coz my photos are so big! Oh yeah and if Lynette is reading this, I didn't get any photos with you! So it'd be great if you can share with me the photos you took of us :)

Rocky Road and chocolate in general

I love love love Darrell Lea's "Rocklea Road" and have even made my own rocky road chocolate. So imagine my elation when I discovered that Baskin-Robbins make a Rocky Road ice cream....mmmm heaven!! Yummy :)

move over Investments!!!

It's all over! It took a while and I almost cried, fall asleep and threw my notes out of the window. But I tolerated and have so been rewarded....I'm praying I pass otherwise I will be throwing myself out of the window. And it's a long way down from the 12th floor...Last words to stupid investments: matching strategies, I hate you!!

Face Book

Judy told me she started using Face Book and that I should definitely join too. So I did. And it's frustrating. I prefer Friendster ;(

things to be thankful for

I have alot to be thankful for today:

1. investment exam is at 5.45pm on friday leaving me 1 week to study (I still haven't started). Yay! The 8am curse has been lifted :)
2. found a textbook exchange website, since most of my courses this semester has changed textbooks so that I can't buy it off my friends who have recently done it
3. yesterday, I bumped into Judy (who almost never comes up this way for shopping) and had a quick catch up. She has cut off all her hair! And coloured it! She looks so grown-up now :)

Thank you God for answering my prayers :)

wasting time

I've successfully wasted about 2 hours surfing the net, checking my emails and what not. I really should get start studying now since I'm totally unprepared for my exam. Serious lack of motivation. However, I have already chosen my subjects for uni the coming semester and worked out a pretty gruelling timetable. At least I'll only have to be in uni 3 days a week, which is pretty sweet :) Mel's starting uni as well and although she was pretty adamant about not doing any subjects involving any kind of maths, I managed to convince her to do intro accounting.

Another christening today at church. There's been alot of christenings and baptisms in the past few weeks...it's great to see God's children coming to Him.

myGC on the nite of my 21st party

on the repeat

most played songs on my o2 atom

hips don't lie / shakira
crazy / gnarls barkley
numb/encore / jay-z, linkin' park
still standing / jewel
sos / rihanna
holiday / greenday
when it all falls apart / the veronicas
tiny dancer / elton john
the blowers daughter / damien rice

a good mix i think

a dreary day on the Gold Coast

it's a hopelessly grey day outside...the only ray of sunshine i can see is a long way off on the horizon. it's uncharacteristically freezing cold too. so much for sunny queensland...

anyway, for those i haven't already told, i lost my treasured motorola razr :'( yes, it was only 3 months old (this was back in april) and u can't find that blue colour here in oz too!! so i replaced it with an o2 atom which was outrageously expensive and from there followed a whole string of bad luck. i wasn't particularly impressed either. although the month of may brought along with it lots of parties - why did everyone have to turn 21 then??

also on the list of things that are bugging me include the fact that my hair isn't growing and i'm itching to cut it again.

however, on my mind at the moment is what i will be doing next year!?!?! i'll be (finally) graduating in december and after my trip to singapore (the first in 5 years, mind you) i had decided to go back there to work instead of the large country town they call brisbane. so having not applied to any graduate positions in oz, i was spared the rejection letters or even a non-reply. i guess most of my friends just assumed it was a phase i was going through when i said i was taking off for singapore at the end of the year (or some other place, kindda like an anywhere-but-here thing) but now that i'm starting to think abt job applications in foreign lands, they're all trying to provide an incentive for me to stay. and mel definitely doesn't want me to leave her here. thing is, i'm actually considering staying. or at least get a job in sydney or melbourne. but i do want to go back to a city that never sleeps, yummy food at any time of the day, become a workaholic and earn shitloads of money. but then i don't really know anyone in singapore...yeah sure i still have relatives and family friends but no good friends like i do here. it may actually be really depressingly lonely for me over there. so the ultimate question is: am i brave enough to start over in a foreign place??

i don't know. *sigh*

just another day in michelle-land

i thought about using the small size for this post but then realised that even i couldn't read it without my eyes going funny...oh the joys of getting old-er. speaking of which, its mummy's birthday today!!! tho i can't actually mention how old she'll be without her strangling me. so, we'll be going to celebrate her birthday tomorrow night at my recommended restaurant - Fermented Grape. this caused a bit of disagreement coz daddy thought it sounded like a gross name for a restaurant with mel adding that she's mentally coming up with images (and smell) of the taiwanese delicacy, fermented beancurd. of course, since this discussion was during dinner, it put everyone off their food...for about 2 seconds. then when i explained that it's a wine restaurant and that u actually get a wine buffet eg. all the booze u can drink, everyone agreed to give it a go. please bear in mind that i came across the restaurant in the gold coast's dining out magazine and that i'm not an alcoholic :)

this will be about the first time, ok second, that i've looked at my results for the last semester and not wanted to die :) however, it just proves that i'm a lazy bum and if i even get my lazy ass into gear for a little bit, i can do so much better! ok so what made the difference?? first of all, i must give credit to chris for his "secret study techniques" which, although a disappointment, did help me to get into gear. second of all, the massive amounts of chocolate i consumed helped lots. lastly, but also most importantly, the 8-hour sleep and frequent naps really refreshed an otherwise sleepy me.

anyway on to more exciting things....we're going to melbourne!!!!!! in about 3 weeks mel and i will be off to melb for some retail therapy....not to mention, this caused some problems for me. namely the fact that i looked into my bank account and discovered i had managed to somewhat save enough in there so that i could buy those true religion jeans i had my eyes on...only to realise that i will not have money to spend in melb. so began the internal struggle of what i should do, which ended when i decided to save it for melb and that i don't need another pair of designer jeans. trust me, hardest decision i made this month.

i managed to sign into msn messenger today (yay!) and got talking to esther about her 21st party...and her newfound allergy to red wine...hahaha. cute story but. she also mentioned that chris didn't stay for long...at least not long enough to meet the hot friends he requested for ;) anyhow, i'm so excited to finally be seeing you again in melb!!

eek....tiredness....can't wait for the next 4 hours to fly by so i can watch inspektor rex my fave crime fighting pooch :))

will be revamping this space real soon so keep an eye out!

slackness...not entirely my fault

it's been a long long time since i've last posted anything. to blame is my laptop, beloved but finally decided to rebel against me... the most frustrating part was hauling it to various places for troubleshooting and repair and between the numerous holidays that delayed my reunion with my computer and the fact that everything got wiped out (ps to all those who think i was dumb enough not to back up my computer before sending it in: the computer wouldn't work anyway and the person who backed up my drive for me deleted everything before i got my laptop back), it took a while for me to get it running again. still without microsoft office, i've actually been slaving away (with lots of tears of frustration) on wordpad. so not funny.

then it was exam time and i was back to procrastinating in front of the tv, watching dvds i've seen a million times. now the holidays are here and i've been forced to work for my parents, they really know how to work me. only finding solice in mindsweeper and now hopelessly addicted, trying to beat my own best time.

i should actually get off my ass and look for work otherwise i'll be an unemployed graduate at the end of the year!

will bring more entertaining news soon...

another year older

it's been a few days since i've turned 21 but it still feels the same...
although i must agree that the past 2 months have made an impact on me and that i'm not completely the same person i was back in december 2005.
and now it's time for me to make more changes in my life.
graduation at the end of the year, need to find a real job now.
so many choices to take from here but i think i will take my time to find the best path.
will definitely head to new york sometime next year with my sister, or the whole family, to embark on a new adventure.
disappointed that the ones who remembered my birthday weren't my older "best" friends.
thank you God for placing new friends in my life over the last year, especially the precious ones i've spent all summer with :)
it's definitely a time for change...and it couldn't have come at a better time!

rain rain go away

its been a gloomy week...
the 1st day i got back to the Coast, it was all hot and sunny!
then for the rest of the week, it has been nothing but rain :(
been looking around for internet connection for myself.
managed to rock up to my lectures...looking like a drowned rat.
seen EY people: chris, zhong rong, felicia
went to a film festival at QUT, watched 2 films on Power Women & Peace Warriors.
very inspiring pieces on overcoming adversity. also proves that there will always be war in the world despite our best efforts. but it also means that we have to try alot harder.
check out Peace One Day at www.peaceoneday.org - 21st September: International Peace Day!

this is my new blog...
will get started on it soon.
lots to post, not enough time.
just got back from Singapore, still adjusting.
need to catch up with judy for some entertainment.
thx to yan zhen for keeping me smiling through the gruelling work.
especially enjoyed your KL story & always scolding me for laughing so loud.
>_< i miss chicken rice!! i've found tt i've lost my appetite since being back here.