Miss Fine

i don't want to be miss fine. i don't want to be struggling, but instead of doing what i need to do (which in my case is talking about it) i just want to bury it. and put plenty of cement over it. it's like previously, everything that i had buried had been unearthed and now, they all lay staring up at me.

i need to go home. i do, i really do. i need to clear things out and settle some stuff at home. i need to find him. i need to know, what happened in grade 12, had i been blind all that time? had i really not seen it all that time? am i only realising this now? but how will i do it? when i don't even know where you are...