to know or not to know? that is the question...

most times, things just don't work out the way we want them to.
i am really tired, exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally.
i'll admit that i've got more than i can handle. and tears don't solve problems.
tears don't move people as well.

but i have to remember to pray for others as well.
there are friends and family who need help too. and i've been so self-absorbed to think of them.

i'm so scared. scared to know.
will i be hurt again? the last time i wanted to know something was just yesterday and it had hurt like hell.
could i just live with things left unsaid?
questions left unanswered?
let's not kid ourselves, i won't be able to do it. because i just have to know everything.

soul are you weary?